I'm sure I am not the only parent who believes Stargardts Disease sucks, but it sucks double when your child WANTS to be a perfect student. She is so hard on herself in school. First I am going to list a few things that are frustrating with school stuff and stargardts to begin with:
spelling words that are too small
text fonts
reading from left and right
math homework
numbers
number grids
computer size
Thats just to name a few.
Today:
Lacey usually tells me when she has a good day at school but she is very cautious about explaining the bad days. I have
never said to her, "Lacey you are a bad student." "You are a failure." "you are so slow in school." But I feel that is what she hears in her head. Why does she feel that way? How do I change that?
Today was a bad day. It started off with last nights homework making it into her brothers homework folder and not her own. That stressed her out when she got to school. It trickled down from there. She said she was behind on her school work during the day because she kept thinking about her homework. I guess they have to sign a book for forgotten homework.
I said to her, "Lacey, you did your homework last night. Did you think about that when you were stressing out about it at school?"
"Yes." She said. "I just knew I didn't bring it in."
When she got home, we did her math. Thankfully today it wasn't adding or subtracting, it was more busy work writing sentences. (15mins) Then it was spelling. Lacey uses the computer to do her spelling trial tests. Her font is set to 48 in WORD and its just like a test, I say the word, she keys it in. She got 4 wrong. 19/23. She started to get upset. This is just a trial test.
I told her to breathe. I told her to look over her test. Which words look different or off? Which word does she see that doesn't look like something she wrote in her homework all week long. She found the words that were wrong right away. I corrected the spelling next to the word and I told her we would work on it again tonight. This test took about 25 to 30 mins. Now, we have been doing homework for a solid 45 minutes. Daylen has been done for 30 mins and she sees that and THAT makes her mad. He is done before her. This is where my dilemma gets worse- Lacey still needs to read, work on braille and do everyday math. We have already been working for 45 mins and we still have at least another hour to go. Now, I can tell her we still have more to work on, or I can give her a break and let her go out and play. I choose to give her a break. Ugh. Just venting.